Boy From Canada

On the dancefloor of badlands I met another handful of people last night. One guy with a different name of Thayer who seemed really cool and a perfect fit for my group of friends....they would love him...and this boy named Declan who was from Canada here on vacation.

After finding out Declan was from Canada of course I had to give him 21 questions since we all know that I'm all about moving there. He explained that every place has it's good and it's bad but he would never move to the states from Canada at all. The equal rights and healthcare is worth paying higher taxes. He also said the clubs out there were a lot bigger...AND Queer as Folk was actually filmed out there in Toronto's gay district "the village". So I'm pretty much DYING to go and see what it's like out there now...I just know if I go that I won't be buying a plane ticket back to the states.

A side note...I'm not really a fan of Miley Cyrus, I do kinda like her song "Party in the U.S.A." but is it me or does she just seem like the new aged version of Lyndsay Lohan, who had better luck with her singing career?

But here's the link to the song I actually kinda like by her...embarrassing I know...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M11SvDtPBhA

Something Old, and Something New...

I am beyond excited that my sister Vi is coming back to the city today. I'll see him tomorrow for sure, I'll be helping him move. Then I'm meeting with this guy who sounds like a good contact as far as a politics and the television industry tomorrow for a possibly future internship.

URG...this Queen has yet to have a damn break. I've been busting my ass with these jobs and trying to keep up in school but have been slacking in the internship department because everything else has been taking up not only my time but my energy. My personal life has been put on hold for a little while BUT I know we'll be back in the fastlane if not this weekend by halloween.

I got some really sad news not last night but the night before. A really close friend of mine tested HIV positive, and it's so sad. He's a year younger than I am and has barely been in the city 6 months. It's really scary just thinking about it. I've decided to get tested this weekend and after I get my results, no sleeping with anyone unless we're actually dating. It's not worth being scared for your life about.

On the brighter side of my world right now....My costume is going to be off the hook this year for halloween ;)

Missed...

I've been back in the dating world for sometime now and have been having a lot of fun but something is missing and I'm just not feeling it lately. I'm not to sure what it's all about but I'm hoping I figure what the hell these feelings are all about.

I haven't been able to talk to my mom as much as I'd like too lately and I really wish I had more of her support but you can only do so much. It's okay though I've been on my own two feet for a while now, I just want a break is all I'm asking for. A time where I'm not worried about what job I have to go to the next day, when I'm going to working at the new job, what school assignment should I be doing right now, is it going to be okay if I go out tonight, and maybe actually get out of california to see what else is out there. I'm not asking for someone to take care of me, I just want a little tiny break, and lord knows I'm not waiting to be an old bitty to enjoy life.

Speaking of work I think I'll be starting the other new job within the next two weeks! I've yet to apply to an internship but after my schedule is going the way I'd like it too, I should be able to control the world again!

Charlie's New Angel

Starting my new job at Universal Protection Services surprised me big time when I realized I actually kinda sorta without a doubt like my job haha. I mean my little self as security is already hard to believe. It's not the type of security where I'm walking around in a uniform with a shiny badge on, instead I have a suit I have to wear! It's fitting with my schedule perfect so far, the only thing is when I'm not working there I almost would rather be back working. Maybe it's just the thought that I'm actually going to start having money again haha. Anyway, I feel like a complete Charlie's Angel whenever I'm working haha.

I'm really excited for the position with Stanley Associates to start. I've never made as much money as they've offered. I think I'm more excited to see if I can survive working 2 full time jobs, a part time job, school full time, as well as some sort of personal life! I know I can do it, I just can't wait to actually see me do it!

On the other hand I am kind of worried. Everyone's been kind of doubtful and thinks I'm not going to have time to sleep, and that I'll burn myself out. I'm going to do it, I'm going to have to if I want to continue living any kind of happy life because being broke is not cute!

When You Don't Ask For Help...

Not having started the new jobs yet I'm still struggling to get by but none the less I'm making it. I'm really not use to not having enough money to get by. But at the same time I know I'm not going to die tomorrow. I know right now I may be broke, but the thing is as soon as I start my new jobs I should have enough money not only to get by, but to pay off my debt and hopefully maybe afford to move to the castro if I save up enough which shouldn't be a problem.

Eshonna came down to the city from L.A. this weekend and she thought that not only am I not asking for help but I'm not accepting help and that it's an ego thing. My take on it is if I can still afford to pay my bills then I shouldn't need help even if it means I have to eat top ramen for 2 weeks or so. I'm hoping I start one of the new jobs by the end of this week, and my other job, crossing fingers, in another 2 to 3 weeks. I still haven't found time to really look for internships.

Changing that note up a little, I've noticed I've been really in my head lately. I feel like maybe I'm thinking too much about everything in my life. I've been in a very Imogen heap, Postal service mood lately...urg

When one door closes...

They say when one door closes another door opens...I'm going to go ahead and say when you get kicked out of your house, you can find you a mansion.

I had been going through a downward spiral, and I hate bringing it up but it's all for the better...

My perfect boyfriend dumped me, my mother had been sent back to the Phillipines, I constantly became sick, and then was laid off of my full time job.....and the revision....was dating, now I think I'll let Mr. Right come find me when he has time, me and my mother talk as much as we possibly can considering we're in completely opposite time zones and we can only really talk online, and I was just hired as of TODAY at Stanley Associates which is going to pay me the most money I think I've ever made. School's going great, I'll have my Video Production Certificate at the end of this semester, HOPEFULLY an AA in radio and television next semester, and I'm praying my BA in Broadcasting the semester after that. I've finally gotten over my sickness!!!

My sister Vi is moving back to the city and I can not wait to see him again, let alone having him back in the city.

I've pulled it together...and hopefully made another miracle happen thank god!

So I currently just have to wait until the company's extensive background check goes through which can take anywhere from a few weeks to a month and a half! Either way I'm excited to be back in business.

I feel as though I'm walking down a busy sidewalk downtown, and my problems are in the building I'm leaving and the solution is in the subway where I'm going, and I'm somewhere in between the two walking straight to the subway, and not looking back at that building. It feels great!

Sweet Sweet September....

So September kind of creeped up on us there didn't it?

Anyway I've been laid off from the lovely Shell Vacations Club which is why I haven't really been online and able to blog but so much has been going on....kind of a blessing in disguise so far I guess you can say ;)

I've been interviewing and applying everywhere and it's pretty much about to drive me insane. I've been to 2 interviews with Wells Fargo, 2 interviews with Stanley Associates (ugh I'm hoping I get it so bad!) and the security proffesional thing MIGHT finally be coming along.

It's labor day weekend and the last dat...actual labor day....I have off and I'm spoiling it by being with my lonesome, as corny as it may sound, but I mean I hardly EVER have a day where it's just me and no people at all, if not I have stacks of crap to do all day.

Some light good news, I'll find out whether I get the job at Stanley tomorrow so I'm really excited about that and am trying my best to stay positive.

I've stopped dating none the less because I'm too busy trying to get my life back together from the little explosions that have been going off in I know youg guys have been begging for something happier to go on, we haven't reached destination happy yet, but we'll get there...soon I hope.