When You Don't Ask For Help...

Not having started the new jobs yet I'm still struggling to get by but none the less I'm making it. I'm really not use to not having enough money to get by. But at the same time I know I'm not going to die tomorrow. I know right now I may be broke, but the thing is as soon as I start my new jobs I should have enough money not only to get by, but to pay off my debt and hopefully maybe afford to move to the castro if I save up enough which shouldn't be a problem.

Eshonna came down to the city from L.A. this weekend and she thought that not only am I not asking for help but I'm not accepting help and that it's an ego thing. My take on it is if I can still afford to pay my bills then I shouldn't need help even if it means I have to eat top ramen for 2 weeks or so. I'm hoping I start one of the new jobs by the end of this week, and my other job, crossing fingers, in another 2 to 3 weeks. I still haven't found time to really look for internships.

Changing that note up a little, I've noticed I've been really in my head lately. I feel like maybe I'm thinking too much about everything in my life. I've been in a very Imogen heap, Postal service mood lately...urg

When one door closes...

They say when one door closes another door opens...I'm going to go ahead and say when you get kicked out of your house, you can find you a mansion.

I had been going through a downward spiral, and I hate bringing it up but it's all for the better...

My perfect boyfriend dumped me, my mother had been sent back to the Phillipines, I constantly became sick, and then was laid off of my full time job.....and the revision....was dating, now I think I'll let Mr. Right come find me when he has time, me and my mother talk as much as we possibly can considering we're in completely opposite time zones and we can only really talk online, and I was just hired as of TODAY at Stanley Associates which is going to pay me the most money I think I've ever made. School's going great, I'll have my Video Production Certificate at the end of this semester, HOPEFULLY an AA in radio and television next semester, and I'm praying my BA in Broadcasting the semester after that. I've finally gotten over my sickness!!!

My sister Vi is moving back to the city and I can not wait to see him again, let alone having him back in the city.

I've pulled it together...and hopefully made another miracle happen thank god!

So I currently just have to wait until the company's extensive background check goes through which can take anywhere from a few weeks to a month and a half! Either way I'm excited to be back in business.

I feel as though I'm walking down a busy sidewalk downtown, and my problems are in the building I'm leaving and the solution is in the subway where I'm going, and I'm somewhere in between the two walking straight to the subway, and not looking back at that building. It feels great!

Sweet Sweet September....

So September kind of creeped up on us there didn't it?

Anyway I've been laid off from the lovely Shell Vacations Club which is why I haven't really been online and able to blog but so much has been going on....kind of a blessing in disguise so far I guess you can say ;)

I've been interviewing and applying everywhere and it's pretty much about to drive me insane. I've been to 2 interviews with Wells Fargo, 2 interviews with Stanley Associates (ugh I'm hoping I get it so bad!) and the security proffesional thing MIGHT finally be coming along.

It's labor day weekend and the last dat...actual labor day....I have off and I'm spoiling it by being with my lonesome, as corny as it may sound, but I mean I hardly EVER have a day where it's just me and no people at all, if not I have stacks of crap to do all day.

Some light good news, I'll find out whether I get the job at Stanley tomorrow so I'm really excited about that and am trying my best to stay positive.

I've stopped dating none the less because I'm too busy trying to get my life back together from the little explosions that have been going off in I know youg guys have been begging for something happier to go on, we haven't reached destination happy yet, but we'll get there...soon I hope.