You Know You Belong in the City When...

...you realize you're not paying for rent...you're to busy to even get anywhere near 8 hours of sleep and have to rush in the shower...and that you're really only paying "rent" for storage.

I have been so busy it's disgusting...but exciting! 3 days ago I had work at one job, from 10am to 3pm, then work at another job from 3pm to 11pm, then work at the same job but a different site from 12am to 8am....so technically I worked from 10am to 8am. RIDICULOUS...but exciting none the less. The day before that I think I slept at a friends house I was at the night before, and the night before that I came home around 3ish in the morning. The longest I've been home in the past 5 days I think is a total of 3 to 4 hours. But that'll change tonight!

After today, I will be in various different outfits all pertaining to Miss Queen...Dee Rose...you are going to love it! Too many events I'm going to this week, and I just realized that this Premiere film festival thing I'm suppose to be going to, to be this guys assistant pretty much, is a night where I'm suppose to be in class....ugh...Have to be at two places at the same time! But of course I can do it!

Waking up in the Marina District

I have this genuine hate for the marina district and the stuck up hoes in it due to the fact that half these bastards look down on other people because they don't have as much money as they do. I have no problem with people having money, if you have money, girl work it out, but these people are far beyond humble.
Anyway, my closest friend, who's also one of the closest things I have to family, Vi, has finally moved back to San Francisco and I'm beyond happy about it. It was nice going solo but it feels great having my sistah from another mistah by my side again. I've been helping him get his stuff together in his place (which is out here in the Marina...ugh).
Not really having been home in a while makes me realize how much i dislike the excelsior also. Alway's having to stare down someone because they wanna act like they've never seen a gay man before really get's old after a while. Sure we're in San Francisco but certain parts of it are not really ghetto per say, just has a bunch of "macho" ignorant fools up in it..mostly straight men I hate to say but it's true. Female's look and you can stare at hoe and she know's she can be handled so she looks the other way, men want to act all macho and hard in front of everyone so of coarse they're up for making a scene.
I haven't had an issues with anyone per say but I am getting tired of the excelsior....haight or castro would be amazing!
Being on this side of the city with my Vi just makes me feel happy though. Let me just say that it has been a rough year, and thank goodness everything is falling into place again.. it's just I'm getting busy beyond my own good..I'm not sure I'm leaving myself with enough time for more work...which is I guess what my plan was all along.

Teaching lessons across U.S. Borders

Mr man from Canada is now back in Canada but he wanted to stay in touch so he has a local phone number so we can still talk. Touchingly, he said that I impressed him and made him think twice about a few things we've talked about.

For one he really liked that I showed genuine care about my friends, and secondly...we had this conversation about how some gay people are really over the top with their personalities. He was telling me how he didn't like it when guys were so over the top because he didn't think it was their real personalities and they just do it to put on a show. I asked him what makes him think that, and he said because they're not like that when they're younger or when they're in the closet. I told him that's because they're too busy hiding who they really are when they're younger or in the closet. They don't want to hint to anyone who they really are.

So he thinks I somewhat opened up his eyes a little, and I'm glad to have done it. That's one person touched who's learned a little bit more about life, a bazillion left to go!

Sidenote: He want's me to go and visit him in Canada... that would be amazing... I'm just a little scared that if I do go out there, I won't be coming back!!! hahaha

Time Almost Left My Little Self Behind...

I completely didn't realize today was Monday. I've been so busy with everything going on and trying to get through last week that I didn't realize last week had already came and gone. I've got some catching up to do tonight, as well as getting ahead.

Although everything has been rushed lately I must say that my Halloween costume is coming together quite Lovely. I'm hoping you all approve of course so far part one of my outfit: my roomie Jenn and homegirl Bella really like. I just have to get part 2 together and still keep up with everything else going on around me.

I don't want to get to emotional(not like I ever really do) but I have to get to class in 15 minutes so I'm keeping this one short and sweet!

Boy From Canada

On the dancefloor of badlands I met another handful of people last night. One guy with a different name of Thayer who seemed really cool and a perfect fit for my group of friends....they would love him...and this boy named Declan who was from Canada here on vacation.

After finding out Declan was from Canada of course I had to give him 21 questions since we all know that I'm all about moving there. He explained that every place has it's good and it's bad but he would never move to the states from Canada at all. The equal rights and healthcare is worth paying higher taxes. He also said the clubs out there were a lot bigger...AND Queer as Folk was actually filmed out there in Toronto's gay district "the village". So I'm pretty much DYING to go and see what it's like out there now...I just know if I go that I won't be buying a plane ticket back to the states.

A side note...I'm not really a fan of Miley Cyrus, I do kinda like her song "Party in the U.S.A." but is it me or does she just seem like the new aged version of Lyndsay Lohan, who had better luck with her singing career?

But here's the link to the song I actually kinda like by her...embarrassing I know...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M11SvDtPBhA

Something Old, and Something New...

I am beyond excited that my sister Vi is coming back to the city today. I'll see him tomorrow for sure, I'll be helping him move. Then I'm meeting with this guy who sounds like a good contact as far as a politics and the television industry tomorrow for a possibly future internship.

URG...this Queen has yet to have a damn break. I've been busting my ass with these jobs and trying to keep up in school but have been slacking in the internship department because everything else has been taking up not only my time but my energy. My personal life has been put on hold for a little while BUT I know we'll be back in the fastlane if not this weekend by halloween.

I got some really sad news not last night but the night before. A really close friend of mine tested HIV positive, and it's so sad. He's a year younger than I am and has barely been in the city 6 months. It's really scary just thinking about it. I've decided to get tested this weekend and after I get my results, no sleeping with anyone unless we're actually dating. It's not worth being scared for your life about.

On the brighter side of my world right now....My costume is going to be off the hook this year for halloween ;)

Missed...

I've been back in the dating world for sometime now and have been having a lot of fun but something is missing and I'm just not feeling it lately. I'm not to sure what it's all about but I'm hoping I figure what the hell these feelings are all about.

I haven't been able to talk to my mom as much as I'd like too lately and I really wish I had more of her support but you can only do so much. It's okay though I've been on my own two feet for a while now, I just want a break is all I'm asking for. A time where I'm not worried about what job I have to go to the next day, when I'm going to working at the new job, what school assignment should I be doing right now, is it going to be okay if I go out tonight, and maybe actually get out of california to see what else is out there. I'm not asking for someone to take care of me, I just want a little tiny break, and lord knows I'm not waiting to be an old bitty to enjoy life.

Speaking of work I think I'll be starting the other new job within the next two weeks! I've yet to apply to an internship but after my schedule is going the way I'd like it too, I should be able to control the world again!

Charlie's New Angel

Starting my new job at Universal Protection Services surprised me big time when I realized I actually kinda sorta without a doubt like my job haha. I mean my little self as security is already hard to believe. It's not the type of security where I'm walking around in a uniform with a shiny badge on, instead I have a suit I have to wear! It's fitting with my schedule perfect so far, the only thing is when I'm not working there I almost would rather be back working. Maybe it's just the thought that I'm actually going to start having money again haha. Anyway, I feel like a complete Charlie's Angel whenever I'm working haha.

I'm really excited for the position with Stanley Associates to start. I've never made as much money as they've offered. I think I'm more excited to see if I can survive working 2 full time jobs, a part time job, school full time, as well as some sort of personal life! I know I can do it, I just can't wait to actually see me do it!

On the other hand I am kind of worried. Everyone's been kind of doubtful and thinks I'm not going to have time to sleep, and that I'll burn myself out. I'm going to do it, I'm going to have to if I want to continue living any kind of happy life because being broke is not cute!