Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 7

Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 6 (2 Mini-sodes)

Two short mini blogs...


Indoor rockclimbing with Kim

Can't really hear me in this one but still hilarious.... During halloween....



Hope you all had a Happy Halloween!

Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 5

LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!!

Domino-Antoine Speaks out Episode 4

The Giants Versus Dodgers Game with Kim.

Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 3

Talks about relationships and people committing suicide. Guess host Kim!

Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 2

Just a little rambling, no real topic...I have a real blog tomorrow! Promise!!!

Domino-Antoine Speaks Out Episode 1

First Video Blog Finally...
I know I need to be a bit more energetic and less distracted but I needed to effing start already!

The Rules of Dating

Lately the dating scene has been ROUGH!!! In the past 4 to 6 months I've dated about 3 different guys in which I thought 2 were promising.
You know I was wrong! Although it didn't work out I'm nit blaming men in general...at least trying my damn hardest not too...but the closest thing to a real man or someone who's able to hang with me is the man in the mirror. I guess no one said the love thing was suppose to easy...
Take my advice and only let yourself fall head over heels for your bank account. A quote of my own... Someone can love you or leave you and if they choose to leave you then you can only learn from it and move in with your life. Love yourself enough to move on as well as let them go. Many people have and will continue to disappoint me and letting myself feel sad about it will only let myself fall into being a victim... And I'm nobodies bitch ;)
Although there are no hard feelings I just wish the men that I dated were up front from the gate instead of playing games to get what they want... Well...until further notice ;)


~Domino^Antoine

Location:Howard St,San Francisco,United States

Back to reality...and Introducing Daphnye

So the guys I was recently dating....whomp whomp whomp.... once again more men "not looking for anything serious".
Can I ask a serious question... Do I look like a god damn joke? Why in the hell do I get all these men that are still in little kid mode? I know I look 12 but damn.
It gets really frustraiting.
So I'm gonna probably change my approach with certain men I meat... and tell them if it's not for keeps you need to be straight up right off the bat



I want to introduce everyone to a new character of mine.....Daphnye Rose...I've had so much fun bringing her out. I've met quite a few men as her, and let me just let it be known that the T-girl scene is completely different from the gay scene. The people and the men (I listed them seperate because I'm starting to believe that men are a different species) I've even gotten a chance to perform as her, you all already know my first performance had to be Beyonce'! I did crazy in love....it was exciting.

There's a lot that's been changing with my personality and who I am as a person lately...I'm not quite sure I wanna explain it right now because your girl is hungry...I'll update you guys more a little later... promises ;)

Dedication to Mr. Potential

Janet Jackson-"If"

Sittin' over here
Starin' in your face
With lust in my eyes
Sure don't give a damn and
Ya don't know
That I've been dreamin' of ya in my fantasy
Never once you looked at me,
Don't even realize that I'm wantin' you
To fulfill my needs
Think what you want
Let your mind free
Run free to a place that no one dares to


How many nights I've laid in bed excited over you
I've closed my eyes and thought of us,
A hundred different ways
I've gotten there so many times
I wonder how 'bout you
Day and night, night and day
All I've got to say is


Chorus:
If I was your girl...
Oh the things I'll do to you
I'd make you call out my name
I'd ask who it belongs to
If I was your woman,
The things I'd do to you
But I'm not, so I can't,
Then I won't
But, if I was your girl


Allow me some time to play with your mind
And you'll get there again and again
Close your eyes and imagine my body undressed
Take your time, we've got all night
You on the rise as you're touchin' my thighs
And let me know what you like
If you like, I'll go down
Da down down down da down down
I'll hold you in my hand and baby


Your smooth and shiny feels so good against my lips, sugar
I want you so bad I can taste your love
Right now, baby
Day and night, night and day
All I've got to say is

Chours (x2)

I've laid in bed excited over you
One hundred different ways I've thought of
Many, Maaaaaannnnny
All I want to say is

(Chours til end)

Another Family Reunion

It's very rare that either side of my family get together unless something devastating or really bad happens. I got a call last week from an old friend an my grandmother telling me that my youngest brothers lungs collapsed. So out of panic I called everyone of my family members in my phone to try to figure out what's going on until I finally got the hospital and room number he was in.
That Saturday I went to see him...my grandmother from my moms side took me...my dad had been staying there with him. Too my surprise it wasn't nearly as awkward as I thought it was going to be...and my dad even payed me a compliment AND we exchanged numbers. I spent most of the day with the three of them and it was beyond crazy seeing my brother hooked up to these two machines they had him hooked up to...one machine for each lung going straight into his sides.
At first everything looked okay but the next day o got a text from my dad telling me that my brother went through x-Ray and was going to have to go through surgery....there was a cyst on each lung that had to be removed.
Today I called because I couldn't go in due to work...and he came out of surgery ok! He just has to get through recovery and hopefully all will be back to normal.
I may not talk to my family on a daily basis but I do love my brothers very very much...once upon a time the three of us were all we had...the smart one the sporty one and the artsy one.
I'm sure one day me and my brothers will hopefully be part of eachothers life on a constant basis...but until then I just want to know that they're going to be okay. Goodness....just thinking abot past memories makes me wonder how we've all drifted...there's been some good times and bad times... I love them both to death though... At the very least I will always be able to say that.
:)


Domino-Antoine

Date Scene

So I've been back on the market for a while now... But only a few months ago started actually dating seriously. I was dating this guy Chris for a while who was really just adorable to me and was the best cuddler an a fabulous kisser! But he wasn't ever really around enough fir me to get to know him.

I started dating this other guy Terry who I met right before I left on my retreat. Honestly I didn't think I'd hear from him after we first met but we stayed in contact. This guys got a personality on him I must say... But in a good way! He's comedy for sure... We've kept the dates friendly at the moment... I don't want the relationship to be based on one thig and one thing only but I know once I have it I'm always going to want it so I've been fighting temptation and have kept the flirting down to a minimum but at the same time I dot want him to loose interest so I don't know...
But this guy has some potential to him...yesterday my head was all over the place due to some family issues (which I'll blog about a different time) but he had me laughing the enitire time we were with eachother...even when I went home through text messages.

The only thing is I hate dating because you always wonder if you're thinking too much or over doing something or if you're head is even in the right place. Urg.... I'll keep you all updated ;)

Retreat With AQUA

So last weekend I went on a retreat with organization AQUA...A support group for Gay, bi, trans, Asian and Pacific Islanders...Now I've never been on a retreat before so I didn't know what to expect. It was a retreat for a weekend to Santa Cruz...they had a cook that made some of the best filipino food...and just food in general ever. The house we stayed in was right on the beach...and there was about 18 of us total...I had the time of my LIFE, and definitely met some of the best people that I've ever come across.

This is a picture of my "Family" during the retreat..."ANTB...America's Next Top and/or Bottoms"

This is all of us who came to the retreat...The actual backyard of the house as well. Right above the grass you can see the water.

My Birthday Week....FINALLY over.

I am so over my birthday.
It has definitely been a lot of fun and such an adventure especially since I didn't even really plan anything big like I usually do. I ended up just having a last minute brunch, a few last minute outings, and a random bonfire. A big bunch of last minute randomness can wear you out, but I had a lot of fun.

So I'm finally open to dating again without judging men and there alter motives.... and there is one person in particular that I'm really intrested in dating. We've "hung out" a few times at random but haven't really date dated yet, BUT we are TRYING to make plans...unfortunately we both have busy schedules this week and next week (I'll be going on a retreat which I'll tell you more about later).

Other than that living by the beach has been amazing...work has turned into "Stanley's next top Associate," which I'll love to get into later as well....

But with all that being said... The age of 23 has started off really interesting at a rapid pace. I've heard it's a good age...22 was a little fast a lot of fun, but had a little bit of too much going on at one time...we'll see how this goes.

Brotherly

Last night I got a random call from my brother and I hardley ever hear from him so I invited him over to meet my roomies. It was really good to see him especially to clear up all the rumors I've been hearing. Turns out he is having a baby (if it turns out to be his) sometime in July. He's not getting married but he does have another court date coming up.
It's always really hard for me to see him then leave him or see him leave just because I feel like I can see in his face that he does want better for himself but I feel like he feels stuck.
The thing is he knows that he has family that's willing to help him but I feel like his pride is getting in the way from him reaching out for it. I love the kid to death and don't know how we both have taken such different paths in life. I understand we are completely different people but in the end all we want is the same thing...to be happy. Maybe our meaning of happy is different?
I just wish I didn't have to see him struggle like this...I once upon a time helped and played a part in raising the little shit and he'll always be my brother. I want the best for him I just have to realize that there's only so much I could do and the rest is up to him.

~Blogged from my cell Domino^Antoine

Location:Taraval St,San Francisco,United States

Forcely Found

I no longer know why I'm working so much and still don't know why I haven't quit one of my jobs or even if I want to. I've continuously came up with excuse for both keepin and quitting a job or two of mine. I am so over havin these self battles and I'm starting to feel like Im loosing knowledge of who I am and what I want or maybe my motives or changing... Or am I starting to want to be lazy or careless? Am I money hungry prideful and too in love with myself or am I kind and giving and hard working and am not caring enough about myself. A year ago I told myself I was going to become a workaholic and I've more than reached success with that goal. I'm able to do it all I'm able to work everyday and nigh if needed too and still hang out with friend ls and go out and occasionally date on top of school. Pretty bad ass for a 22 year old but I don't know how long I can continuously force myself to challenge myself. I feel like I keep challenging myself to see if I can stand at the end of the day...I've forced myself so much that sometimes there is no endto my day. What am I missing.. What else do I want.. I'm starting to get angry at my current state and I'm too old and have been through too much and know myself too well to be as lost as I am right now. And I know what my friends and what some people think I should do...I just am not convinced that it's the right thing to do. I feel like a prisoner to myself.


~Blogged from my cell Domino^Antoine

Location:Castro St,San Francisco,United States

After A Sunday Off

I know it's been a minute since I last posted anything but let me tell you the month of February has been crazy and ridiculously busy. I'm acctually kind of surprised the month is over though.
This passed weekend I went to the Chinese New year parade... I haven't been to a Chinese New Year parade in ages so it reminded of me of when I was a kid when I went.

I've definitely evolved a bit in February. I look a little different with my short spikey sharp edged relaxed hair now haha although because I work so much you'll probably see me in my usual an unupdated work clothing...hopefully that'll change by the end of this week but we'll see it's my week for bills...ugh! I think instead of waiting to save up for a laptop I might just try to get a loan but I need to hurry since I need a new laptop by the begining of next semester...let's cross our fingers.

~Blogged from my cell Domino^Antoine

Location:15th Ave,San Francisco,United States

All Settled In

Finally moved into my new place and I'm getting all settled in. I am in love with the place...I now live 2 blocks from the beach! HOW EXCITING! I also live super lose to 2 of my friends. I decided since I'm super close to the beach I'm going to jog on a regular basis and play baywatch at the beach more often!

I've got everything I need/want right now. A great place, great friends, and good jobs that pay me well and that I'm proud of having. I'm thinking of taking the semester off to get in the grove of things, and save up some money. But I'm just thinking about it, it's not for sure yet.

So I somehow ended up with this three day weekend and I've been having a great time off, however, I know it's almost over, which is the bad part about days off...you enjoy it too much just to go back to work non-stop...urg hahaha. Well, It's a new year, I have a new mind set, and I'm in a new place.

Moving...and Possibly going to have a Sister In Law?

So I'm moving hopefully by Monday next week into my new place. It'll be two blocks from the beach...and a few of my friends will be living walking distance so I'm really excited about that.

Quick question...My brother who is 3 years younger than me and who I deeply care for (whether I talk to him every day or just once a damn year doesn't calculate how much I love my brother thank you very much) I just found out is getting married? WHAT THE HELL??? I can't get ahold of him and no one in my family has his number. I don't know what to do but I really feel the need to get ahold of him to talk some sense into him.

Those who know my brother know he's a hot mess sometimes...I can't believe this...he's made a lot of mistakes in his life this is the very last thing he needs! The stupid government shouldn't have taken my mother away, if they didn't she could've knocked some god damn sense into his ass and I could almost guarantee this wouldn't have happened.