Not going too much into detail...but a few weeks ago me and Marcus were kind of sort of but not really re-connecting, I didn't want to share because nothing was definite and I didn't want it to be too good to be true...and of course it was. I've learned a lot more about him, he's got a few issues he needs to deal with himself before I think he's ready to be in a relationship. After...not to sound cliche' or dramatic...getting my heart crushed by him...I'm finally free from it all and I don't fantasize anymore whether we would've been perfect together or not. It's simply done. I'd like to remain friends with him but I guess we'll see.
Although now I'm just not sure I really want to date. I'm not even really sure if I want love after that. What I think I need is just a friend until I'm out of this blank space. I may not have those feelings for Marcus anymore, but I feel kind of blank...maybe scared of what else I'd let happen to me if I fall for someone else. I'm sure love will come eventually but I'm not waiting or expecting it to happen anytime soon...I'm just taking one day at a time...and that's all I can do!
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