Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Back On The Throne.


For the past week or so I've been waking up around 3:30ish in the morning and not being able to fall back asleep for about an hour. It's been such a pain in the ass. Any remedies anyone know of for this?

But anyway, last night when I woke up I was able to just go to sleep without having to use a pillow to pretend like it was a certain someones arm wrapped around me. I woke up this morning back with my drive to conquer the world.

I truly believe I'm a good person. I try my best to love everyone that I let in my life, and try my best to leave some kind of imprint in everyone's life that I cut out of my life. I try not to judge too much, I love making people laugh, and I strongly believe that a smile is contagious, and always am trying to lend a helping hand.

I know that beauty comes from the inside of a person. I have so much to live for and so much to give to the world. So no more pathetic-ness, no more being down. I know I'm going through a lot right now but let me say this again...If I can't get through this, I'm not ever going to be able to get through anything.

Do I miss my mom yes, but her decisions and what happens to her right now can't affect what I need to get done with my life. Do I miss Marcus yes, but I'm not the partner he wants, therefore it wasn't meant to be, so I can't let that stop me from meeting people who are going to want me to be there partner. There's going to be other men out there that will appreciate me as much as he did and will be that special someone for me....

So until then....Cheers everybody.

1 comment:

  1. I had the same sleeping problem for like a year. I have a remedy! Smoke a joint and then read a book. You'll fall asleep after a chapter I guarantee it.

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